RANT NG INA MO!!

“Who will wash the dishes….who will clean the toilet…blah, blah, blah, blah blah, blah, blah….”

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That was a line from a movie entitled Sunshine that was show around the 70’s with the original soundtrack sung by John Denver entitled “Sunsine on my Shoulders”… I think my mom and i watched it together with my younger brother Chris.

It was a story about a family who had lost their mom to cancer… I think that was actually one of the first few movies that dealt with the topic. All other movies back then was about music and singing and breaking into a dream sequence or a dance and song segment.

Oh well (deep sigh), that was the same rant my mom constantly nagged us with when we were growing up.. When we left the dishes or didn’t make our beds or when we didn’t do our chores. Who knew my mom would end up in the same circumstance several years later. Well, I do clean our toilet, I do wash d dishes… Etc., etc., etc., And now that I have my own kids, I do get to use that line too, Damn!! Doesn’t work.

Parenting is a totally different ballgame especially if you are doing it solo.. I can only sigh.. Grit my teeth…look up the sky….. Pray …..and work myself till I’m too tired to think.. with sight too blurry from working on my laptop opting to shower to wash my worries away…..moisturize… and close my eyes…. like my mom says.. “Tomorrow is another day” Another battle begins!

The following morning, you wake up and restart!! New game new day!! New issues, new problems, bills to pay, loans, your child’s tuition, rent. Yeah you can actually handle just so much…. I thank the Lord everyday for my sanity and quick wit! But sometimes with so many things on your head, Can it possibly explode like in the old movie “Scanners“.

Thank God too that even with so many things in my head, I have not nor have ever been a SPAGHETTI BRAIN..yeah like Hetti Spaghetti.. Like some people I have worked with who have used the excuse of creativity for dim-wittedness. Through the years I have learned to COMPARTMENTALIZE, or PRIORITIZE which matters should be dealt with first and which ones second and third and so forth. It is a way of, yes CHOOSING YOUR BATTLES WISELY. I have of course been guilty of, most often than not, putting my best interest last.

Have u actually thought about your life?? What you have been doing all these years… Are you the lazy dude in the office who lives off on his salary……partying and boozing out, or the office staff whose always on her phone kulang na lang mag-vlog and most of the time just into herself, her latest buy from Shopee or Lazada or her selfie with the newest milk tea in town. But who are we to judge right?

Each and every person has their own worries. They have their own problems to deal with. For others it might be that they don’t have air conditioning at home, others deal with not having food on the table or not being able to enroll their kid to school. Not having house over their heads. People deal with all of these things differently. Some might be easier to others and harder to some, its all a matter of how you deal with it. Support? Be thankful if there is some support, be thankful top if there is none. Having time by yourself to sort things out in your head is also essential for survival. Having some time to cry it all out too helps. Whatever works for you.

Remember, whatever amount of pain you may be experiencing, no amount of paracetamol, mefenamic acid or even omeprazole can help, not even katinko can do d trick.

Drinking nor doing drugs also won’t help, it will just add on to your already bloated poverty line.. And the IMF is already seeing the signals. Plus these will only make you uglier than a dried prune with fried brains.

I abhor suicide!!!!! Killing yourself doesn’t end the pain. It even expands it, extending the pain to the people around you. Dying isn’t the answer… Its expensive and painful. If I die now, I will just be a burden to the people around me. All the expenses!!! Can’t I just be put on a “banca” and somebody shoot a flaming arrow at me. Then my ashes will just be scattered in Scarborough Shoal. Hahaha…… I actually stated paying for a St. Peter thing about a couple of years ago, thought about how I should bury myself when the day comes and theres no one to bury me, its quite morbid but was actually a good idea in case i had no one to take care of me. But then again, I was already running out of cash, and would rather pay for groceries. So, lets worry about that later……..

Now i just want things plain and simple … Coffee to start my mornings, and prepping breakfast for my loved ones before i leave for another day’s battle.

I work to pay the bills, to put my kid to school, to pay for the townhouse we are renting, to put food on the table, to pay for loans, sometime to get a mani pedi or even a massage especially when I end up with a frozen shoulder.

I wish, like my mom before me, to have a house in Tagaytay or in Baguio.. Or maybe beside d beach… Watching d sunsets and the sun rise.. That day will come..this lifetime or maybe the next. Meantime there is Pinterest, so enjoy!!

Going solo is actually scary, very difficult and truly very lonely. You want company but at the same time you are hesitant of what that can lead to or how it will affect you and your children. Friends are there, now especially on socials, but sometimes they’re there but are physically or emotionally distant, and of course they have their own worries too and you wouln’t want to be a burden. Have you ever heard of a solo huddle or brainstorming on you own?? Oh well…i can go on and on and on… ranting and raving

It’s end of day… Time to sleep, I believe I have lost this day to ANGER….. I am just trying to make something positive out of it….… Tomorrow is another day.

Game Over na tonight. Bukas naman na ulit…. Zzzzzzzzz…..

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Sunshine (1973 film)

Plot

Sunshine is a 1973 made-for-television docudrama, directed by Joseph Sargent and produced by George Eckstein,[1] about a young wife and mother who dies of cancer at age 20. The film stars Cristina Raines in the lead role of Kate Hayden (Raines’ first big movie role), Cliff DeYoung as Kate’s husband Sam Hayden, and twins Lindsay and Sidney Greenbush as Jill, Kate and Sam’s daughter, as a toddler. It originally aired on CBS as an episode of the CBS Friday Night Movie on November 9, 1973. When first aired, Sunshine was the most watched made-for-TV film in history.[2] The film uses John Denver‘s song “Sunshine on My Shoulders” as a theme

Young pregnant divorcee Kate (Cristina Raines) falls in love with struggling musician Sam Hayden (Cliff DeYoung), and they become a couple, eventually getting married. A few months into Kate and Sam’s relationship, Kate gives birth to a daughter they name Jill. Although Jill’s biological father is Kate’s former husband, Sam loves Jill and regards her as his own child.

Shortly after Jill is born, Kate gets the shocking news that she has osteosarcoma, a form of cancer that affects the bone cells. Kate has two options to treat her cancer: she can either have her leg amputated and hope the cancer does not spread, or undergo chemotherapy. Unwilling to lose her leg, Kate initially has chemotherapy which makes her very ill and unable to function in her daily life or look after Jill. Kate then decides to forego treatment entirely and concentrate on being a wife to Sam and a mother to Jill in the short time she has left, since not treating the cancer will hasten her death.

Kate agrees to take part in a medical research study by keeping a recorded journal in which she describes her feelings about being a young wife and mother facing death. After Kate has been journalling for some time, her tape recorder is stolen, causing her story to gain national attention. She receives a replacement tape recorder and continues her journal until she dies at the end of the film.[

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That was a line from a movie entitled Sunshine that was show around the 70’s with the original soundtrack sung by John Denver entitled “Sunsine on my Shoulders”… I think my mom and i watched it together with my younger brother Chris.

It was a story about a family who had lost their mom to cancer… I think that was actually one of the first few movies that dealt with the topic. All other movies back then was about music and singing and breaking into a dream sequence or a dance and song segment.

Oh well (deep sigh), that was the same rant my mom constantly nagged us with when we were growing up.. When we left the dishes or didn’t make our beds or when we didn’t do our chores. Who knew my mom would end up in the same circumstance several years later. Well, I do clean our toilet, I do wash d dishes… Etc., etc., etc., And now that I have my own kids, I do get to use that line too, Damn!! Doesn’t work.

Parenting is a totally different ballgame especially if you are doing it solo.. I can only sigh.. Grit my teeth…look up the sky….. Pray …..and work myself till I’m too tired to think.. with sight too blurry from working on my laptop opting to shower to wash my worries away…..moisturize… and close my eyes…. like my mom says.. “Tomorrow is another day” Another battle begins!

The following morning, you wake up and restart!! New game new day!! New issues, new problems, bills to pay, loans, your child’s tuition, rent. Yeah you can actually handle just so much…. I thank the Lord everyday for my sanity and quick wit! But sometimes with so many things on your head, Can it possibly explode like in the old movie “Scanners“.

Thank God too that even with so many things in my head, I have not nor have ever been a SPAGHETTI BRAIN..yeah like Hetti Spaghetti.. Like some people I have worked with who have used the excuse of creativity for dim-wittedness. Through the years I have learned to COMPARTMENTALIZE, or PRIORITIZE which matters should be dealt with first and which ones second and third and so forth. It is a way of, yes CHOOSING YOUR BATTLES WISELY. I have of course been guilty of, most often than not, putting my best interest last.

Have u actually thought about your life?? What you have been doing all these years… Are you the lazy dude in the office who lives off on his salary……partying and boozing out, or the office staff whose always on her phone kulang na lang mag-vlog and most of the time just into herself, her latest buy from Shopee or Lazada or her selfie with the newest milk tea in town. But who are we to judge right?

Each and every person has their own worries. They have their own problems to deal with. For others it might be that they don’t have air conditioning at home, others deal with not having food on the table or not being able to enroll their kid to school. Not having house over their heads. People deal with all of these things differently. Some might be easier to others and harder to some, its all a matter of how you deal with it. Support? Be thankful if there is some support, be thankful top if there is none. Having time by yourself to sort things out in your head is also essential for survival. Having some time to cry it all out too helps. Whatever works for you.

Remember, whatever amount of pain you may be experiencing, no amount of paracetamol, mefenamic acid or even omeprazole can help, not even katinko can do d trick.

Drinking nor doing drugs also won’t help, it will just add on to your already bloated poverty line.. And the IMF is already seeing the signals. Plus these will only make you uglier than a dried prune with fried brains.

I abhor suicide!!!!! Killing yourself doesn’t end the pain. It even expands it, extending the pain to the people around you. Dying isn’t the answer… Its expensive and painful. If I die now, I will just be a burden to the people around me. All the expenses!!! Can’t I just be put on a “banca” and somebody shoot a flaming arrow at me. Then my ashes will just be scattered in Scarborough Shoal. Hahaha…… I actually stated paying for a St. Peter thing about a couple of years ago, thought about how I should bury myself when the day comes and theres no one to bury me, its quite morbid but was actually a good idea in case i had no one to take care of me. But then again, I was already running out of cash, and would rather pay for groceries. So, lets worry about that later……..

Now i just want things plain and simple … Coffee to start my mornings, and prepping breakfast for my loved ones before i leave for another day’s battle.

I work to pay the bills, to put my kid to school, to pay for the townhouse we are renting, to put food on the table, to pay for loans, sometime to get a mani pedi or even a massage especially when I end up with a frozen shoulder.

I wish, like my mom before me, to have a house in Tagaytay or in Baguio.. Or maybe beside d beach… Watching d sunsets and the sun rise.. That day will come..this lifetime or maybe the next. Meantime there is Pinterest, so enjoy!!

Going solo is actually scary, very difficult and truly very lonely. You want company but at the same time you are hesitant of what that can lead to or how it will affect you and your children. Friends are there, now especially on socials, but sometimes they’re there but are physically or emotionally distant, and of course they have their own worries too and you wouln’t want to be a burden. Have you ever heard of a solo huddle or brainstorming on you own?? Oh well…i can go on and on and on… ranting and raving

It’s end of day… Time to sleep, I believe I have lost this day to ANGER….. I am just trying to make something positive out of it….… Tomorrow is another day.

Game Over na tonight. Bukas naman na ulit…. Zzzzzzzzz…..

——————————————————————————————————————–

Sunshine (1973 film)

Plot

Sunshine is a 1973 made-for-television docudrama, directed by Joseph Sargent and produced by George Eckstein,[1] about a young wife and mother who dies of cancer at age 20. The film stars Cristina Raines in the lead role of Kate Hayden (Raines’ first big movie role), Cliff DeYoung as Kate’s husband Sam Hayden, and twins Lindsay and Sidney Greenbush as Jill, Kate and Sam’s daughter, as a toddler. It originally aired on CBS as an episode of the CBS Friday Night Movie on November 9, 1973. When first aired, Sunshine was the most watched made-for-TV film in history.[2] The film uses John Denver‘s song “Sunshine on My Shoulders” as a theme

Young pregnant divorcee Kate (Cristina Raines) falls in love with struggling musician Sam Hayden (Cliff DeYoung), and they become a couple, eventually getting married. A few months into Kate and Sam’s relationship, Kate gives birth to a daughter they name Jill. Although Jill’s biological father is Kate’s former husband, Sam loves Jill and regards her as his own child.

Shortly after Jill is born, Kate gets the shocking news that she has osteosarcoma, a form of cancer that affects the bone cells. Kate has two options to treat her cancer: she can either have her leg amputated and hope the cancer does not spread, or undergo chemotherapy. Unwilling to lose her leg, Kate initially has chemotherapy which makes her very ill and unable to function in her daily life or look after Jill. Kate then decides to forego treatment entirely and concentrate on being a wife to Sam and a mother to Jill in the short time she has left, since not treating the cancer will hasten her death.

Kate agrees to take part in a medical research study by keeping a recorded journal in which she describes her feelings about being a young wife and mother facing death. After Kate has been journalling for some time, her tape recorder is stolen, causing her story to gain national attention. She receives a replacement tape recorder and continues her journal until she dies at the end of the film.[

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